After another year-long wait, "Oz: The Complete Fourth Season" drops into stores tomorrow. This makes me all smiley. Season Four is 16 episodes long instead of eight. Whoo. That means more "drool time" with Lee Tergesen who plays Tobias Beecher. He's dreamy.
In Other Show News:
It's being reported that "The Simpsons: The Complete Sixth Season" will hit stores on June 14th. Whoo Hoo!
Your weekend can't possibly compare with mine for all its sheer excitement and mind numbing fun. Check it out here!
I'm feeling somewhat better. The fabulous Michelle and I are gonna go to Nick & Nate's for some beer, food and conversation after work. That should pep me up. I have already been pepped up by the super hot photo that Homer posted.
Dang. Looks like the fun cabin weekend getaway with some close friends has imploded due to weather forecasts that are screaming for sleet, ice, freezing or snow ... or all of the above at the same time. Whoo. After the stressful week I have had, I was looking forward to getting the heck outta Dodge for a few days. I had already purchased whiskey to sip by the fireside. I guess I'll just have to sip it on my own with a horror film or two to keep me company.
Yeah. I'm wallowing in self-pity at the moment. I still haven't been able to come to grips with just why the Evil one is still stuck in my head. It hits me on certain days and, yep, today has turned into one of those days.
I feel stupid for not having moved past this yet.
I feel stupid because I can actually use the word "years" when referring to this situation. Time is supposed to make things better, right?
I also know you all are tired on me harping on it. "Oh, look. That fella from North Carolina is on about that 'Evil' guy again. How boring."
See. It would do you no good to date me. I would become obsessed and stalker-ish with you. That much is clear. And you would no idea it was going on because I would never, ever let on that something was up. You would be totally in the dark.
So, while you go off and find something far more exciting and interesting on the web, I'll sit here with my Maker's Mark and some horror films. Viva la weekend.
I always appreciate being linked. I'm blown away that people actually read this site and wanna link to it. It makes me all smiley. So, check out the list with some newly added blogs.
SEVENTEEN SECONDS (1980) / FAITH (1981) / PORNOGRAPHY (1982)
TRACK DETAILS OF THE NEXT ROUND OF RE-MASTERED RE-RELEASES - OUT IN APRIL...
THE CURE
SEVENTEEN SECONDS
2 CD SET
COMPILED BY ROBERT SMITH
Digitally Remastered from the Original Master Tapes. Features 15 tracks on CD for the very first time. Deluxe package contains a 20 page booklet including sleevenotes and lyrics with rare and previously unseen photographs.
SEVENTEEN SECONDS: THE ORIGINAL ALBUM
01. A REFLECTION
02. PLAY FOR TODAY
03. SECRETS
04. IN YOUR HOUSE
05. THREE
06. THE FINAL SOUND
07. A FOREST
08. M
09. AT NIGHT
10. SEVENTEEN SECONDS
SEVENTEEN SECONDS: RARITIES 1979-1980
01. I'M A CULT HERO (vinyl single by CULT HERO)
02. I DIG YOU (vinyl single by CULT HERO)
03. ANOTHER JOURNEY BY TRAIN (home demo)
04. SECRETS (home demo)
05. SEVENTEEN SECONDS (live)
06. IN YOUR HOUSE (live)
07. THREE (alt studio mix)
08. I DIG YOU (CULT HERO live)
09. I'M A CULT HERO (CULT HERO live)
10. M (live)
11. THE FINAL SOUND (live)
12. A REFLECTION (live)
13. PLAY FOR TODAY (live)
14. AT NIGHT (live)
15. A FOREST (live)
*****
THE CURE
FAITH
2 CD SET
COMPILED BY ROBERT SMITH
Digitally Remastered from the Original Master Tapes. Features 4 previously unreleased songs and 15 tracks on CD for the very first time. Deluxe package contains a 20 page booklet including sleevenotes and lyrics with rare and previously unseen photographs.
FAITH: THE ORIGINAL ALBUM
01. THE HOLY HOUR
02. PRIMARY
03. OTHER VOICES
04. ALL CATS ARE GREY
05. THE FUNERAL PARTY
06. DOUBT
07. THE DROWNING MAN
08. FAITH
09. CARNAGE VISORS
FAITH: RARITIES 1980-1981
01. FAITH (RS home demo)
02. DOUBT (RS home demo)
03. DROWNING (group home demo)
04. THE HOLY HOUR (group home demo)
05. PRIMARY (studio out-take)
06. GOING HOME TIME (studio out-take)
07. THE VIOLIN SONG (studio out-take)
08. A NORMAL STORY (studio out-take)
09. ALL CATS ARE GREY (live)
10. THE FUNERAL PARTY (live)
11. OTHER VOICES (live)
12. THE DROWNING MAN (live)
13. FAITH (live)
14. FOREVER (live)
15. CHARLOTTE SOMETIMES (single)
*****
THE CURE
PORNOGRAPHY
2 CD SET
COMPILED BY ROBERT SMITH
Digitally Remastered from the Original Master Tapes. Features 5 previously unreleased songs and 14 tracks on CD for the very first time. Deluxe package contains a 20 page booklet including sleevenotes with rare and previously unseen photographs.
PORNOGRAPHY: THE ORIGINAL ALBUM
01. ONE HUNDRED YEARS
02. A SHORT TERM EFFECT
03. THE HANGING GARDEN
04. SIAMESE TWINS
05. THE FIGUREHEAD
06. A STRANGE DAY
07. COLD
08. PORNOGRAPHY
PORNOGRAPHY: RARITIES 1981-1982
01. BREAK (group home demo)
02. DEMISE (studio demo)
03. TEMPTATION (studio demo)
04. THE FIGUREHEAD (studio demo)
05. THE HANGING GARDEN (studio demo)
06. ONE HUNDRED YEARS (studio demo)
07. AIRLOCK: THE SOUNDTRACK
08. COLD (live)
09. A STRANGE DAY (live)
10. PORNOGRAPHY (live)
11. ALL MINE (live)
12. A SHORT TERM EFFECT (live)
13. SIAMESE TWINS (live)
14. TEMPTATION TWO (aka lgtb) (RS studio demo)
Oh, my goodness. The Man has posted the greatest clip ever. It definitely brought a smile to my face. You kick ass, man! I must go camping as soon as possible ... though I doubt two leather daddies will bust into my tent in the middle of the night. Plus, I really wouldn't want them to chainsaw their way in as I spent a lot of money on my lightweight backpacking tent. Anyhoo ...
Yeah. And not the good kind of "humpity" either. Too busy today to be stressed/drepressed. Slowly but surely ticking through the work load. Whoo. If'n you have a love of cock (and I know you do), you can go waste some time here. Trust me. You'll enjoy it.
... right in the middle of my forehead.
So, apparently everything that's wrong or has been delayed at work is my fault as well. "You're the one holding this stuff up. It should have been done weeks ago." Well, yeah it would if y'all didn't keep pushing other "time sensitive" stuff my way. Grrr.
How shitty is it of me to not answer the phone when my sister called twice last night? Pretty shitty, in my opinion.
I am still getting bugged about that freelance stuff too. As if I have nothing to do but deal with it. Day job. It's pays the bills. Remember that.
I hate feeling stressed out 'cause my mind starts to go into overdrive and worry about stuff that isn't even in the scheme of things ... the overall direction of my life, dateless-ness, self esteem, career, friends, past decisions. So, who wants to volunteer for hatchet duty? It won't take long. I promise.
Grrr. The past few days are the kinda days that make me want to change my name, move to a new city and start fresh. New friends. New job. No family obligations.
My sister and her husband are back into it again already. Friday night consisted on being woken up at 1:00 a.m. to go get her and get her over to my cousins house. Needless to say I was out until 4:00 a.m. dealing with this shit. Next day she has her husband come and get her and she's back at home. How many times did she call me yesterday? A lot. They were already into it again. Bad thing about this is she won't listen to any of the advice that I have given her. She hates him and doesn't want to live with him anymore. I say "divorce/lawyer" to her. No, I can't do that. It'll cost money which she doesn't have. She says she gonna kill him or herself. I say "counseling/meds" to her. Nope. If she sees a counselor they will think she's crazy and commit her. Jesus. And, where is my father during all this? Who the hell knows. I guess I get to keep handling this one on my own.
I arrive at work this morning to a pissy e-mail from the head of the theatre that I freelance for. They are doing a fundraiser that I have worked up a logo for. The lady that coordinating "has been trying to reach you but not connecting and is starting to lean on me." Well, hell. She has my fucking phone number. Has she called me? No. "Both of the meetings we have had so far were to discuss printed material, with you being the most important person we wanted there, and not having you there made them sort of a waste of everyones time." Well, hell. First of all you should have the meeting in the evening ... when I have a better chance of making it. I do have a day job, remember? Secondly, if I was the main person you needed there ... why the hell didn't you say that in the first place instead of "make it if you can" or "we would like to have you there." And why am I just hearing about this eleven days after the last meeting?
Fuck. Times like these ... times like these.
Do you feel like you ever want
To try my love and see how well it fits
Baby can't you see when you look at me
I can't kick this feeling when it hits
All alone in my bed at night
I grab my pillow and squeeze it tight
I think of you and I dream of you
All the time, what am I gonna do
Chic - I Want Your Love [6.36 MB]
Funny how things get started isn't it? Put one drunk birthday girl and one in-need-of-distraction fella together and ... BAM ... the plan to go get tattoos is made. We've going back and forth this whole week. She thinks I am gonna weenie out. Ha! Me? My main concern is getting what I want (pictured above) and having it look good. I've seen plenty of really awful tattoos in my time. And what I want has plenty of shading and such. Yeah, I know what you're thinking. "He wants to get the Apple logo etched on to his body?!?!?" Yeah. Yeah, I do.
... so to speak. Owen Hawk has made the cover of the new issue of Unzipped. Damn! Now everyone will know about him, even though it's me that's been lusting after him since his debut in Manplay 8 (where he sports a mowhawk ... *sigh*). Back off, people. He's mine, mine, mine!
I wonder if the doc needs to up my meds. All week I have woken up with the distinct sensation of panic building up. But, once I am out of the bed and moving it fades to the background and disappears completely. Ugh. My boss was fussy with me this morning. Apparently I didn't do anything right yesterday. Ugh. Friday night and I have rehearsal for "Antigone in New York." Whoo. My life is fun right now. I am gonna sleep in late tomorrow. What was that I was saying about hibernation?
Good lord ... Wednesday already! As you can probably guess, I haven't had a lot of energy to do much the past few days. Must be the winter blues again. For about a week it was like spring outside. Over the weekend it turned butt-ass cold out there. I really suspect that's the reason for my super-laziness. I just wanna crawl under a blanket and sleep. Good thing I don't live much further north, eh?
Thinking about a new look for the site.
Thinking I blew too much money over the last month.
Thinking about painted outlet covers and curtain fabrics.
Still thinking about getting inked.
Another Work Week
Yow. What an exhausting weekend it was. It's good to be back at work where I can take a nap or something.
Friday Night:
We had rehearsal for the next show that I am in. We open up in Mid-February, so I really need to get off my ass and start learning my lines. I get to play a NYPD sergeant. So, I'll get to walk around with gun, night stick and handcuffs for a couple of weekends. Anybody for a little role playing? Heh, heh.
Saturday:
Yipee! The electrician finally came and finished up the wiring in my bedroom! All the outlets are working. The new ceiling fan is up. The closet light works. I can get my cd rack moved back in (and organized).
Then it was clean, clean, clean, clean, clean, clean for the big Martini Party that night. Even though the house is back in some order it was still a mess of dust and dirt that required quite some time to get up. I really need to get back on my Sunday morning cleaning schedule.
That night the big party was under way. The whole reason for this do was to celebrate the birthdays of Sherry and Francis. The b-day gals seemed to have a great time. The house was full of candles. Jazz music was playing on the stereo. Ice was rattling in the cocktail shaker. I started making drinks about 6:30-ish and didn't stop until around 11:00. Talk about exhausting. But everyone seem super-pleased with the drinks that were flowing ... and trust me, a lot of liquor flowed through that party. The favorite drinks of the night seemed to be the Naked Lady, Chocolate and French Martini. I tried an impromptu recipe called the Spider Bite which is Vodka, Malibu Rum, Angostura Bitters and Lime and really like it. The people actually drinking them thought they were too strong. Hello! It's a martini. It's supposed to be strong. A drunk Francis and I talked late into the night after bar had been closed. I think we have almost talked ourselves into going together and getting tattoos. How crazy is that? Needless to say, I had no time to take any pictures. There were some cameras floating around, so I will see who I can harass and get some posted. Good friends. Good food. Good drinks. Great party.
Sunday:
I was a slob and laid on the couch all day. I mustered enough energy about 4:00 to get to the grocery store. And I rented "Shaun of the Dead" as well. What a kickin' movie. Very much worth renting if'n you like zombies and such.
And now that I have typed all this, I'm gonna take my first nap of the day.
And Now ... Corey Summers
To counteract that George Bush picture (just for you Homer), I offer you Corey Summers. Now why, you say, have a I posted a pretty "twink"-ish fellas instead of some hot leather daddy? Well, the fact of the matter is, that Mr. Summers is probably my favorite porno actor. Firstly, there is his killer smile. Secondly, there is his ... er, well you know what it is. Thirdly, his acting skills were pretty damn good. He could handle those movies that required some dialogue and plot (see Jerry Douglas' excellent "Top Secret" ... a modern porno masterpiece). It's a total shame that he succumbed to the "shave it all" attitude of porn. You could tell that if he had gone au-natural he would have had some fuzziness to rival Danny Vox. And that would have only made a good thing that much better. Alas, he has retired from porno after a short run and probably working is some boring job under his real name. If you ever happen to read this Corey ... know that you still have a rabid, die-hard fan out there.
Dubya, Dubya, Dubya
President Bush says he now sees that tough talk can have an "unintended consequence."
During a round-table interview with reporters from 14 newspapers, the president, who not long ago declined to identify any mistakes he'd made during his first term, expressed misgivings for two of his most famous expressions: "Bring 'em on," in reference to Iraqis attacking U.S. troops, and his vow to get Osama bin Laden "dead or alive."
"Sometimes, words have consequences you don't intend them to mean," Bush said Thursday.
"'Bring 'em on' is the classic example, when I was really trying to rally the troops and make it clear to them that I fully understood, you know, what a great job they were doing. And those words had an unintended consequence. It kind of, some interpreted it to be defiance in the face of danger. That certainly wasn't the case."
What more can one say. "Bring 'em on" means support not defiance. It still blows my mind that this country re-elected this dumbass. Four more years. Ugh.
Martini Time!
I'm hosting a swank Martini Party tomorrow night for a couple of friends and I get to bar-tend. Seems like word of my martini makin' skills is getting around town. Should be a spanking-ly good time. The bad thing though is just how damn expensive it can get when you make those flavored concoctions. Pictured over is over $80 worth of liqueurs. Yow. But I guess that what happens when you wanna be hip and serve tasty drinks. The martini glasses are chilling. The jazz music is ready to spin on the cd player. My fancy duds are ready to be worn. It's almost time to shake 'em and drink 'em.
The Martini Menu
Classic Dry Gin Martini:
3 shots Gin
Garnish with Olives
Classic Dry Vodka Martini:
3 shots Vodka
Garnish with a Lemon Twist
Chocolate Martini:
1 shot Vodka, 1 shot Kahlua, 1 shot Godiva Chocolate Liqueur
Garnish with a Hershey's Kiss
Lava Lamp Martini:
2 shots Vodka, splash of Chambord, splash honey
Naked Lady Martini:
2 1/2 shots Vodka, 1/4 shot Godiva Chocolate Liqueur, 1/4 shot Goldschlager
Garnish with an Edible Flower Petal
Almond Joy Martini:
1 1/2 shot Vodka, 1 shot Frangelico, 1 shot White Creme De Cacao
Garnish with a Hershey's Kiss
Gotham Martini:
2 shots Vodka, 1/4 shot Blacberry Brandy, 1/4 Black Sambuca
Garnish with Three Blackberries
Orange Delight Martini:
2 shots Vodka, 1 shot Cointreau
Garnish with an Orange Twist
Lemon Drop Martini:
3 shots Citron Vodka, teaspoon Limoncello
Garnish with a Lemon Twist
Nutty Angel Martini:
1 shot Vodka, 1 shot Frangelico, 1 shot Bailey's Irish Cream, 1/2 shot Dark Creme De Cacao
Garnish with with Shaved Chocolate
French Martini:
2 shots Vodka, 1/2 shot Chambord, 1/2 shot Pineapple Juice
Garnish with a Lemon Twist
Berlin Martini:
2 shots Vodka, 3 dashes Apple Schnapps, 1 splash Black Sambuca
Garnish with an Apple Slice
Broken Heart Martini:
2 1/2 shots Absolut Kurant Vodka, 1/2 shot Godiva Chocolate Liqueur
Garnish with a Stick of Chocolate
Espresso Martini:
1 shot Stoli Kafya Vodka, 1 shot Tia Maria, 1 shot Bailey's Irish Cream
Garnish with Coffee Beans
On the Home Front
Last night I moved all the displace "stuff" from my office and bedroom back into the office and bedroom. Wow! What a difference not having piles of books and tapes and cds and my computer desk in the living room makes. It actually looks like a sane person lives there instead of some crazy pack rat. I think we need to have a party on Saturday night.
On the Web
Queerday is hosting the first annual Queeries ... and The Man has been nominated in three catagories (Best Gay Weblog, Best American Weblog, Weblog of the Year). So get over there and vote!
In the World
So, the US has finally stopped looking for those pesky WMDs in Iraq. Bill Clinton lied about a blow job and got impeached. George W. Bush lies to the American public, leads us to war based on that lie and nothing happens to him.
Mac World Expo: My 2¢ Worth
Yep. The Mac World Expo has all of us Mac nerds buzzin' about new Mac-y goodness. I dig the new offerings ... and not because they are something that I would buy. They seem more geared to the Windows user that wants Mac but doesn't want to outlay the cash for one. Switch now, oh Windows user, and come the light that is Apple!
Mac Mini
Not something I would purchase for myself, but I have already had a Mac lusting friend say he would probably get one. His PC bit the dust (shocker) a few months ago and he's been needing something new. And what better than a Mac mini. He already has the set-up from his old Dell. And he would spend at least $499 just to get a new PC tower. I think this brilliant marketing on Apple's part. I hope it really takes off.
iPod Shuffle
Another great marketing idea. Targeted at those who want the iPod but don't want to drop over $250 for the regular or mini version.
iLife and iWork
Of course, these are must for anyone with a Mac.
Let's Play the ABC Game!
A - Alphabetizing makes life easier.
B - "Bitter" could a word used to describe me.
C - Consent forms must me signed before you can go on the field trip.
D - DVDs are my dirty little addiction.
E - Everyone tends to tell me their dirty little secrets.
F - Fear is a control tactic.
G - George "Dubya" is still tops on my Shit List.
H - Honk if you love ice cream.
I - I'm in desperate need of a date (or some attention).
J - Japanese horror films have a wonderful "nightmare" quality.
K - Kickin' back with a beer and a movie is something I really enjoy.
L - Love is a myth, a lie or (quite possibly) both.
M - Metrosexuals are an evil invention of pop culture and the fashion industry.
N - Nightmares can be fun and educational.
O - Owen Hawk needs to be my love slave.
P - Pop Music Stars need to have their vocal cords severed.
Q - Qees are pretty fun little collector's items.
R - Rainy days are something I look forward to.
S - "Simple" isn't necessarily a bad thing.
T - Taking the train to NYC is something I never want to do again.
U - UPS delivery men are nowhere near as cute as the FedEx guys (around here anyway).
V - Vintage Gay Porn is way hotter than current industry offerings.
W - Walking (or hiking) in the woods is a good stress reliever.
X - Xylophones are very under-used in modern music.
Y - You can never go home again.
Z - Zippered pants aren't quite as fun a button-flys.
[via Slapmonkey]
Another One Bites the Dust
So, here is the completed closet featuring the spanking-ly expensive Stanley Closet Organizer System. Mmmmmm. It's so sweet. I was a weenie and bought some of the pricey add-ons such as the hamper and trouser rack. My closet is now a swank place to store my porno and all the dress clothes that I never wear. Whoo. And, yes. The plan for now is to not put any doors up and see how I like the "open" look.
There's a special shelf in the closet just for my Homer hat. I heart my Homer hat. He's drinking a beer. Mmmmmm, beer.
Going. Going. Gone!
Dear sweet Jebus! The weekends are flying by waaaaay too fast. Maybe they will slow down a little when I don't spend them working all the time. I started moving all my furniture around yesterday. The bed and such are back in the bedroom. The computer desk is back in the office. Yes! It's gonna take a few more days to get everything totally back in order (it's been kinda like moving in for the first time). Plus I still have a few more elements of my closet system to deal with getting installed, but that is nothing major. So, suffice it to say that photos of the "completed" rooms will appear a little later on the week.
More art ... via Daniel Martin Diaz.
There's so much on my mind right now that I can't even begin to put it down here. It's the usual stuff. Questions about friendships, my actions, love, lack of love, trust ... the usual crap that my brain tends towards. Maybe it was the joking way in which we both referred to my being "madly in love" with him the other day. Maybe it was that third-party lunch meeting triggered by the comments of some stupid youngster. Maybe it's because I lied my ass off to that third-party. God. It was so "high school." Maybe it's because it's a grey and rainy day out there. Maybe it's just the fact that it's gonna be another event-less Friday night.
Almost. Done. Can't Wait.
Just a few more little things to deal with and I am done! I gotta get the closet system installed. I have a few more pieces of small molding to put in the closet. I have a little bit of "touch up" painting that I need to do. I gotta get the new ceiling fan put together. But all that's small potatoes at this point. What's holding me up the most is getting the electrician back to finish the rewiring.
Good News!
I got an e-mail from a very dear friend of mine announcing his wedding plans. How exciting. Jeff and Kelly have been together for quite a while (and have the cutest little boy). They will tie the knot sometime in May. He's even asked me to be a part of the wedding. I have, of course, said that I would be thrilled to take part.
New Year's Blues
This is what I wish I had been doing the past weekend. *Sigh* It was a busy (if not uneventful) lead into the new year. Partied Friday night with a wee bit too much champagne and spent the rest of the weekend working in my bedroom ... doing home improvements, fellas, and not anything too fun. It's starting to get me down. I hate mess. I spend all my free time painting, sawing, nailing (not the good kind). Ugh. The house is a mess ... a total mess. Good news is that I should be done by Saturday and be able to start moving stuff back in. I wonder if Mr. Ryker is available for some heavy lifting.
So, that's the story for today folks. Tired. Depressed. Horny.
